A Long Night - Yesterday

Yeah, yesterday was the longest night - something similar to the longest day battle on the european coast during world war II.

So it was our baby chellam was crying like anything, she was feeling difficult about something which we couldn't find out. The problem was never rectified. From the moment I got home she was crying, feeding, doing the usual chores and again start crying. I, my wife and my mother-in-law all were already tired because of our hectic schedules, still we couldn't do anything for a good night sleep. My mother-in-law could sleep on the first half of the night when I and my wife were looking after the baby. And then my turn came for the sleep and my wife and mother-in-law took over at around 4 AM.

It was harrowing, as I was sleeping in the same room as they were in, I can hear all the screams from my child and was practically disturbed the whole night thinking of all the possibilities for her discomfort. But in the morning I had another startling revelation. More babies do better damage to the sleep than this. Now should I be glad about a very small but difficult experience or be sad for it. That's for us to decide.

Anyhow, it has been a long night and again a long day at the office - I am going to my home tonight (baby is with her mother at my mother-in-law's house)and hence can be sure that I will be spared tonight.

Looking forward to more longer nights to come when the baby chellam visits me at my house. Again owning and caring for a baby is not child's play. And to just know that we have a piece of rememberance when we leave this world is itself a total gratification a human could really acheive. So good things don't come easy, you have to toil hard for them. Do it and your kid will be in that total gratification factor.

C'ya.....

A Big Turner in my Life

I thought my marriage was the biggest turner in my life, but the next one which could be more big has come and it is the birth of my first child.

It has changed my life already, just into the fourth day of her birth, I see most of my movements, behaviour and everything is changing for the best. I am not sure How far I am going to move with this. She is a small, cute little child, who just throws her eyes around - still not recognizing most of the guys around. But she definitely recognizes the mother around.

Everybody in my family are saying, she reminds us of my sister - who had passed away - I may also like believing that. But as a tribute I am thinking of naming my child after my sister. I am thinking a lot of stuff. But I am not sure of anything. My mind is simply going crazy to see her. Right when I am about to leave to visit her at my mother-in-law's house, I thought of registering this moment in the history of the web - my blog.

The more I am in love with the beloved little thing, the more I am fascinated with the bonding I have had, am having and am about to have with my wife. Who is the softest and great little person I have to see more often than before now. Our relationship is going to turn into a new coin after all that has happened in the few weeks towards the birth of the child and after that.

This post is entirely what I am feeling right now - and hence can be right out-of-proportions for some. Anyhow, this is my blog and I have the independence to do so, hence sorry for others who haven't found that special moment. May be the best I can do for them is pray for their moment of glory to be acheived soon. God does miracles in very different ways - you will find them soon. It takes time to actually think and realize them. I have done the same a lot of time, hence you will get your time sooner than later - with that thought let me cut short this kirukkal.